“In your Church, Lord…” – A Pastor’s Prayer.

Dear God,

My heart is wrenching in angst and sadness this morning.

Cynicism, suspicion, prejudice, and violence seem all to abound in the the hearts of those who say they love you, Lord.

They abound in your church, Lord, where the opposite should really be the reality.

In your church, Lord…

In your church, Lord, we choose to put our faith in weapons of war as our answer to problems in our world, exchanging violence for violence in a seemingly endless cycle. All the while we ignore the ‘sword of the Spirit:’ your Word, who says ‘Blessed are the peacemakers!”

In your church, Lord, we even mock those who long for peace, and we reject the Prince of Peace as we do.

In your church, Lord, we deny women their full humanity, and we embody the idea that women do not bear the full image of the divine.  We do this each time we make a joke at a woman’s expense, or when we assume that we can define a woman’s role in the church and the world.

In your church, Lord, racism is rife.  Sure, we say that do not see skin tone, or make assumptions based on the color of a person’s skin; we say that none of that matters. But watch how our defenses get raised when we are faced with the challenges of diversity in the church.  We feel threatened by difference and react with fear instead of perfect love, which casts out all fear.

In your church, Lord, we are guilty of profound arrogance.  We believe that our individual life experiences, the lessons we have learned and the conclusions we have come to, are the final word in all things.  We lack humility and the desire to grow and have our lives transformed to your ways.

In your church, Lord, we have rejected the extravagant, quite scandalous, and unconditional nature of your GREAT love, instead choosing only to appear to love when people have been deemed worthy; when they have learned to talk like us, look like us, believe like us, fit in with us.  Only when we have judged a person acceptable in our sight; only when they deserve to have it do we fully and extravagantly share our watered down version of your ‘love’ with them.


My heart hurts, Lord.

This is your church.

And you have called and ordained me as one who will lead in your church.

But right now I feel like I am failing miserably when I see this reality around me.

My frustration is palpable.

But my faith remains in you, because only you have the power to transform lives.


So, Lord…

Where our faith is misplaced, and put in the wrong things and places, help us return to you.

Where we have stopped striving, hoping, and working for peace in the world, help us by reviving our dead hearts and expanding our small minds.

Where we think that another human being is less than us because of their gender, bring us to repentance and teach us in your way: the way in which ALL people can be called by you to ANY vocation or station.

Where the poison of racism lives and thrives within us, obliterate it, Lord, and transform your church.

Where arrogance has blinded us to new things and to continuous maturing and growth in our lives, open our eyes so that we might see, know, and experience your powerful transforming grace!

Where we have fenced you in, and tried to put a boundary on your GREAT love with our own limited understanding, forgive us and flood our hearts with your ever flowing and never ending rivers of love.

And in me, Lord…

Show me where I am wrong.

Show me where I have misunderstood.

Show me my prejudice.

Show me how I have boxed you in.

Forgive me for the angst, bitterness, and frustration that feels so rife in me right now.

Transform my flawed, broken life. Guide me so as to walk in your way more and more everyday. Transform my life to make it more like Christ’s life; to bear his image and likeness in all places and conversations.

Sanctify me, because I know that even as I point the finger within your church, I also must own the fact that I too am the church.

So, Lord, hear this prayer today, and transform your people.




Dirty Glory – John 1

Dirty Glory

I opened up “Dirty Glory” by Pete Grieg this morning. I have had it for a couple of months but have not been able to get it started until today. I am only at the beginning but I am already drawn in (as I usually am) by Grieg’s ability to communicate deep, penetrating truth in such engaging ways. What follows is Grieg’s take on the opening 30 or so words of John’s Gospel, which, if you have been following this blog you will know, is of particular interest to me at the minute. How I wish I had had this stuff when i was writing my opening comments on the gospel of John a couple of months back!

“When God made us again, he came first to a teenage girl, and then to unwashed shepherds and later to pagan astrologers. God spoke the gospel as a dirty word into a religious culture. “The Word,” we are told by John at the start of his Gospel, became “flesh.” The Latin used here is caro , from which we get “carnivore,” “incarnation,” “carnival,” and even “carnal.” [6] God became a lump of meat, a street circus, a man like every man. John is messing with our minds. He knew perfectly well that this opening salvo was a shocking, seemingly blasphemous way to start his Gospel. Like Malcolm McLaren, Alexander McQueen, or Quentin Tarantino, he is grabbing attention, insisting upon an audience, demanding a response.

“In the beginning,” he says, echoing the opening line of the Bible, lulling us all into a false sense of religious security. At this point, I imagine John pausing mischievously, just long enough for every son of Abraham to fill in the blank incorrectly. “In the beginning,” he continues, “was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” It’s the familiar creation narrative outrageously remixed, featuring a mysterious new aspect of the divinity named, like some kind of superhero in a Marvel comic, The Word . And yet for John’s Greek readers the vast majority of Christians by the time the Gospel was written [7] the Word was not a new concept at all. For them this was the familiar Logos of domestic philosophy, that divine animating principle pervading the cosmos. The bewildering thing for their ears would have been John’s emphatic conflation of this pagan Greek notion of divinity with the Creator God of Jewish monotheism: “The Word,” he says unambiguously, “was God.” And so, in just these first thirty words of his Gospel, John has effectively both affirmed and alienated his entire audience, Greek and Jew alike. And then, like a prizefighter in the ring, while we are all still reeling from this first theological onslaught, John lands his body blow: “The Word,” he says, “became flesh .” It’s a breathtaking statement, equally appalling for the Jews, who had an elaborate set of 613 rules to help segregate holiness from worldliness, and for the Greeks, who despised the flesh with its malodorous suppurations and embarrassing, base instincts. “The Word became flesh.” Imagine the intake of breath, the furrowed brows, the wives looking at their husbands silently asking, “Did he just say what I think he said?” and the husbands glancing towards their elders wondering, “Is this OK?” It’s punk-rock theology. It’s a screaming “hello.””

God and Public Schools…

This stuff irks me.

Don’t get me wrong. I would love it if prayers were still prayed publicly in schools. I would love it if the Scripture were read in schools (or any other public arena for that matter.)

However to suggest that God is not in schools is preposterous.

To say it suggests that Godly teachers leave their faith at the door and don’t pray for the children in their classes.

To say it suggests that Godly administrators and staff members do not in any way carry their faith into schools and the relationships that are established with children and families in those schools.

To say it suggests that God is not present as Godly parents and volunteers pray for and are present in schools on a daily basis.

To say that God is not in schools is to make a massive theological statement about God – namely that God is not omnipresent (in all places). Isn’t it one of the pillars of mainstream theological thinking that God is omnipresent? How then can God’s people, who would generally state that God is omnipresent in the world, say that somehow God can be banished from public schools?

The sooner God’s people begin to understand that God is omnipresent (in all places – everywhere) and that God resides within them by the power of God’s Spirit, and that God can no more be “removed” from public schools than the sun can fail to rise and set each day, the better.

And the sooner God’s people quit mindlessly and thoughtlessly jumping on to the bandwagon of this ridiculous pandering of political fear the better. Religious persecution does take place. It is a reality, and Christians are the most persecuted religious grouping in the world. But the removal of prayer from schools is not an act of religious persecution. Removal of prayer from schools is an act in line with a political ideology and constitutional foundation (in USA) that separates church and state.

My suggestion is this: instead of ‘liking and sharing’ a social media post, how about joining with your brothers and sisters in Christ at your church’s prayer meeting and praying for your local schools, teachers, and pupils?  How about volunteering in your local school and getting to know the teachers and pupils there. And then pray for them too.

The bottom line is this: God’s presence and glory in the world are manifest most greatly though the quiet and consistent actions,  and the humble witness of God’s people in the world. When God’s people are in local schools, God cannot be absent from school.

So stop posting preposterous pictures like the one above. 


Privilege and Prayer

Two weeks ago I was contacted by a member of a local church.  She had been asked by her pastor to call around several churches and pastors to see if they would have an interest in coming together to have a time of prayer.  The pastor had been led to initiate this in the wake of another fatal shooting in our local town, which had happened just a few weeks before. The plan was to have a planning and information meeting the next day and then bring folks together 10 days later for a prayer walk through the area where the shooting took place to the local park and then have a small gathering for more prayer there.  This is the kind of unity I love to work in and so I readily agreed to attend the meeting and the gathering.

When I got to the meeting it became very clear to me, very quickly that I was the only caucasian in the room.  I knew that the church which had contacted me initially was indeed an African-American church.  I also knew that the area of town we had been invited to walk through was an area predominantly populated by the African American community.  I had no problem with this whatsoever, in fact, as I have mentioned above, this is the kind of unity that I love to work in – the unity that brings people across the divides that have historically been created.  So we planned and we discussed and everyone had their say.  Then we agreed upon when and where we would meet.

The gathering took place just last Saturday.  I met with my new friends and we walked the 1.6 miles from the scene of the shooting to the park.  The walk took place in silence as everyone brought their own prayers and intercessions before God; praying for the community, for the homes, for the individuals we walked past; for the groups that were gathered in the various places we walked past.  I was walking through an area of town that I have not been in during the two years that i have lived here.  In contrast to the cosmetically pristine places where i live and work, I was walking past condemned buildings, houses that were in disrepair, yet still were lived in, pieces of land that were littered with trash and broken glass.  All the way along, I was aware that this was a new place for me; a place which my privileged life does not normally take me to.

When we got to the park we gathered under the gazebo there.  The plan which had been agreed was to let every pastor who was there pray for around 3 minutes.  This would not be a problem for me – I know how to pray and I knew what I wanted to pray about.  There was no order.  We were just going to get up and gather as we were called upon.  The pastor who had had the vision for the whole event was the first to take the microphone.  As she began to speak, I started to understand that what we were being asked to do was to say a few words and then lead people in prayer.  As she began to speak and pray, I began to recognize that familiar style, which the African-American Christian tradition is famous for – the passionate and zealous proclamation of Scripture, the literal crying out to God for something to give, and for things to change, the deep breath taken before each phrase is spoken. The gathered group were active in encouraging the speakers with their cries of “Amen!,” the loud noises of affirmation and agreement, and their continuous claps of applause and loud cheers of solidarity with what was being spoken.  There was life and vitality and hunger and even a sense of desperation in both the speaking/praying and the actions of the listeners.  It is a style which is completely foreign to me and yet also completely attractive to me; a style which causes a sort of spiritual envy within me: why can’t I preach and pray like this?

My turn came. I was the third one to take the microphone.

“My name is Charlie.  I am a pastor of a Methodist Church here in town, and I guess i am the only Irish guy here today…”

They laughed with me in appreciation of the way I had pointed out the very obvious difference between the rest of the group and myself.  I spoke for a few minutes and then led the people in prayer.  By contrast to what had already been said and done, my prayers were timid in volume and presentation.  By no means would I say that they were any less genuine – my heart was in tune with all the cries of the other prayers.  But they were certainly offered in a different manner.

As I listened to all the prayers being prayed and the words being preached, i began to recognize a significant difference.  For me, the significance of the gathering was in the reconciling, and the breaking down of barriers; that I was a white Irishman praying in unity with group of African Americans.  That wall which still remains between those two groups had another couple of bricks removed from its structure.  But for the others who were gathered, this thing was not about the ministry of reconciliation primarily.  The gathering was intended to be a gathering of prayer for the community, a calling out on behalf of a community which is ravaged with drug addiction, poverty, unemployment, broken family life and an undercurrent of hopelessness.  This is what the church in that community was crying out for: praying for prostitutes to be restored in dignity and set free from the need to sell themselves; praying for addicts and dealers who are so caught up in that life that there seems to be no escape for them or their community from it; for fathers that are not with their children; for mothers that don’t care for their children; for men to be good men, righteous men, responsible men; for women to seek holiness and righteousness for themselves and their community.  As I heard the prayers of my brothers and sisters, I realized that i do not pray into these issues with the same passion and hunger because these issues are ones are not in my face or the face of my community on a day to day basis.  When I hear of a community ravaged by crime and addiction and social breakdown, my response is to sympathetically shake my head and wonder how and why things like this happen.  The truth is that i have not walked a mile in the shoes of those who struggle in these ways.  I have grown up and lived in communities where this has not been a part of day to day life. While I have worked in such areas and certainly seen the struggle of some people in those areas, I feel bereft of the ability to practically help them.

I realized something on Saturday and Sunday as I reflected on this: Because of my privilege and relative lack of life impact due to these things, my prayers are not prayed with the same zeal and desperation as those whose lives are impacted daily by them. For sure, I pray into social issues in a generic way, but I would be lying if I said that I was moved so much that I would be literally crying out on behalf of a community.

I also realized that it is likely that not only is this true for me, but it is also true for my church.  I am the pastor of a reasonably well off, middle class church.  The community in which we are situated is not short on its own problems, but neither does it have the prevalence of social issues like what i have mentioned above.  We not only struggle to get people to pray collectively, but when we do get them, our prayers are very ordered and  timid; empty of zeal and desperation and in stark contrast to the prayers of my friends who are ministering in the African-American community.

Is it possible that our privilege and our wealth has emptied our prayers of any real hunger and sense of desperation? Is it possible that as reasonably wealthy people we have become so self sufficient that we don’t pray out of a need for God anymore and actually pray more out of a sense of religious habit and duty?

Where is the hunger?

Where is the zeal?

Where is the passion and desperation in our calls for God to move?

Truly, they seem to be absent among me and the people I serve in the reasonably well off, middle class church.

And if this is true, what is to be done about it to see an appropriate and effective change in our lives with God.